Become someone new. Loosen up and make peace with your rugged, concrete self. Sand yourself down and try something different. Sometimes, placing yourself within people only make your worries heavier, they make life a little burdensome, so instead of creating boulders, make more open space.
For a long time, i’d lay in silence, staring into the dark waiting for – something. I’d wonder, would my life always be like this? Would my thoughts be clouded with, “what if”s? and “what will happen next”?
There are days where my hands become incapable of working, where i don’t want to move, where i want the world to cave in under me and swallow me whole, where my body feels as cold as ice and my blood feels like poison. I used to feel like a new person every year, but now, i get that feeling every night.