It’s been a difficult year, full of so many ups and downs. Filled to the brim of people entering and leaving my life, mixed feelings and oh-so many difficult and life changing experiences.
There are days where my hands become incapable of working, where i don’t want to move, where i want the world to cave in under me and swallow me whole, where my body feels as cold as ice and my blood feels like poison. I used to feel like a new person every year, but now, i get that feeling every night.
It’s been a while since i’ve free-wrote. It’s been a while since i’ve felt this way, it’s been a while since i’ve done the things i’ve done. But the good that comes out of it- being about to speak about it and spread knowledge.
You’re going to feel as if you’re being pushed against the current, like you’re suffocating. Your mind will feel like it’s drowning, and your blood will feel like rapids.